She was always the main character in her dreams and always felt very loved, wanted and desired. Since her dreams were so far from being her reality, she’d often distance herself from everything that went on around her and sought refuge in those dreams.
For example, every time she stopped being friends with someone, she’d go back into her little fantasy world, where nobody could hurt her. Much on the contrary – there, everyone loved her.
Growing up that way seemed easier, but the truth was turning out to be more difficult then she’d ever imagined. Her family moved away from everything and everyone she’d ever known.
All of a sudden, this girl found herself in a new country, surrounded by new people who spoke a whole new language. Those were the worst years of her adolescence. The girls in her new school were mean.
Bullying was a new game she didn’t know how to play. Fortunately, she could always take refuge in her dreams. And so, as time went by, she closed up and didn’t let anyone in. She would listen to her walkman all day long and daydream.
The life of this ordinary girl who thought she’d never amount to much, and who was constantly told that she was too shy to ever date, let alone get married. This girl didn’t even know how to ride a bike and had insecurities written all over her face. She didn’t smile at strangers or her fellow classmates, she didn’t look anyone in the eyes – it was too scary for her. Her world revolved around her getting from one day to the next...
That girl was me.
One day I found God and through Him, I found myself - all crouched down in the corner - afraid to come out and be who I really was. It wasn’t easy; I’d been hiding in that corner for a long time. My eyes were opened and I began seeing things differently; I began believing in the things that, until now, had only been a dream.
I tore down the walls I built around myself. I learned how to fight. This whole process of coming out of my invisible bubble took a while because I had been its prisoner my whole life. But I was finally able to break free.
Free from all of my childhood and adolescent insecurities. Free from all those wrong ideas that I had accumulated over the years. Free from the stubborn habits that cost me so much in the past. I was free to be who I truly was; the Cristiane, God had created me to be.
I suggest you do the same because this situation is quite depressing. Honestly, no one can really help you if you stay stuck in your bubble. Only God can burst this wicked bubble for you.
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